My Desire

I look into your eyes, you seem to smile

You were talking, but I can’t hear your voice

I touched your face, but only air I felt

I held your hand, only to realize I was holding mine.

I need to feel how to be loved by you.

I want to be happy being with you.

Even if I know, it's merely for a while

I am holding on for the chance it might.

That someday you can love me too

And I can hold you close to me

Although for now, I could not do

Because you are holding someone else's too.

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What is Right? What is Wrong?

Which is which?

Fight for your love or set them free?

Which is right?

Forgive then forget or forget then forgive?

What is really right?

I love you because I need you or

I need you because I love?

What should it be?

To see is to believe or believe when you see it?

Does it have to be…

Action speaks louder than words but still words hurt more than action

Is it?

Love for a reason or the reason is love?

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Just the Way I Want

Some expect me to be “perfect” but I am not

 

For nobody is..

 

 I have my mistakes, weaknesses and fears

But I’m so contented for whatever life I have now

And it doesn’t matter where I came from

My title or my family name

It’s always my dignity as a person that counts

Others may see me as a STONE

Not a gem

But I don’t give a damn

 

I know who I am

How I care for people I love

What I think and what I feel

Me, myself and I

Not perfect but just the way I WANT IT…

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BE, AS YOU

Sometimes you just have to forget the rules

Follow your heart and see where it takes you

 

 

 

 

 

Never apologize for saying what you feel

Because that’s like saying sorry for being real

 

Never regret anything you said or did

Because at some point, it was what you wanted

 

True strength is being able to hold it all together

When everyone else is expecting you to fall apart..

 

 

 

 

 

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LOVE'S MAGIC SPELL

The sun shines in your eyes I could tell

Every time I at it look the magic will spell

And a garden of rose will rise again

As you breathe, the angels will sing

 

My heart beats faster as we walk

I can hear our love silently talk

Without a word, the story will unfold

A happy ending is what we hold

Like the moon that lead our way

You hold my hand and let it sways

Like free birds flying

Like a harmony that keeps on playing

It’s a firework that touches the sky

When you smile I can’t help but cry

‘Coz finally I could see the sun

That long ago was hiding in the ground

At the end of the rainbow, there was you

And the tree of love begun to grow

The rain will pour us with forever too

I will love you forever, promise I will do..

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INCAPABLE

I was sitting under a tree

Then suddenly a leaf fell on me

And in my hand I see it die

Like the way you do in this heart of mine

The pain starts on knocking

And I hate the feeling I’m in

Wish it would go on with the air

And never will it come back again

I feel so stupid to let things happened

Now I don’t know how exactly to mend

And it’s hard to go on without you

‘Coz I made my life around you

How many sighs I need to make?

How many tears I need to shed?

How many heartaches I have to felt?

You’re not coming back how much I plead

Time will heal like what they’ve said

I don’t know when but I knew not now

‘Coz I’m still holding the love I’ve known

The reason why I still tried to go on…

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I Love You but GOODBYE

If only I knew how to make things better

Then my love will stay with you forever   

If only I could give you the things you needed

Then our hearts will never start to bend

Wish I can say

That I will hold and stay

Thought that what we have will save us from despair

But turns out, it will only put us in so much pain

I hope you know that I don’t really want to go

Though our fate told me that I must let go

Leaving you behind while still loving you

But It’s the best thing for me and you

‘Coz we are starting silently to hurt each other

And we can’t take as much as we can bear

No matter how much we try to prevail

But sometimes love will lead us in vain

So I’m letting you go

And I hope you find someone new

Who will love you as much as I loved you

The kind of love which I failed to give to you

I’m sorry if I made you cry

If I have to leave you please don’t ask me why

‘Coz it will only tear me up inside

To say I love you and tell you goodbye…

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LESS

Walking fast

Sadness to cast

Slowly breathing

Start on longing

Happiness flee

Didn’t get to see

The darkness draw

In a count of two

Raging Thunder

Buried it under

Heart that broken

Escaping so clever

Witted flower

Shadows to wear

Embracing the pain

Trust I didn’t gain

Hard to breathe

Nearly to death

Scattered pieces

Life that mess

Unanswered question

Undying emotion

Feeling helpless

A heart that’s restless…

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ONE MORE CHANCE

Everything may lie, so did I

And I’m sorry I never understand why

Why did I hurt you? Why did I make you cry?

Can you forgive me and give us another try?

If only I could turn back the hands of time

To the days when you are still mine

I’ll do the things that I haven’t done

‘Coz I’m certainly hurting now that you are gone

Forgive me if you thought my love is in vain

If I broke your heart and caused it to pain

I’m not that perfect - I do make mistakes

But I want you back whatever it takes

What should I say just to make you stay?   

‘Coz being without you is difficult to take

Will you give me a second chance?

A chance to prove my love is genuine

I wanna make things right

So give me a chance to fight

I wanna show you my love is true

And a promise that I won’t make you blue

I hope you will let your heart see

That you mean everything to me

And you’re the one who could make me happy

So please stay and take a chance with me….

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THE KIND OF LOVE

To love is to love yourself first

To love others is to accept

Not only for what you see

But most of all for those you don’t

Love is not boastful, it is not vain

Nor didn’t mean to play

For love is pure, love is authentic

It didn’t mean to lie or to trick

To love is to give unconditionally

Without anticipating any answer or key

It is love without regretting

Loving without ending in separating

Love is always causing pain

For love is not love without ache

It is the way of love to make it stronger

To survive and be the kind of love forever ….

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My Angel in You

I’ve never been happy as I am now

Until you came and gave love to me

Show me what a true world could be

Letting me know that there is more to see

I came into a world where devils play around

Where all the sins are just laid on the ground

With each step of the way are baits and spears

Ready to attack anytime I feel the fear

Then suddenly an angel appeared

Just in the nick of time, he held my hand

Walk me through the light of faith

And even find heaven right through his face

When I’m losing my grip of sanity

Your smile is giving it back to me

                                                  You sheltered me from evils around

With you, they can never break me down

You’re my wings to fly in the sky

You're my truth behind the lies

You’re an answer in unanswered prayer

Now I know this world could be fair 

I will love you with all I might

And together we will fight

With you and God who is my sunlight

I could smile in this battle of life…

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LOVE'S SACRIFICE

How did we end up like this?

Yesterday we’re like a bunch of kids

Playing & giggling; Jumping & laughing

Who would’ve thought, it’ll turn into parting

It’s like fate the first time we met

From a complete strangers to Lovers who knows no end

But life is so tricky and can be arbitrary

Leading us into the world of unfamiliarity

I will not ask for you to stay

It is I who will run away

If I’m starting getting into your nerve

I guess this is what I deserve

For you to be happy and to live freely

Even though it will hurt me

If it’s for you

I’m willing to sacrifice because I Love You…

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ALREADY TIRED

What if one day

You heard that I just passed away

What will you do?

Will you cry too?

I’m tired of pretending

I’m tired of smiling

I’m tired of being tired

Well I guess, I’m tired of this LIFE…

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Lifeless Life

Why is life so crucial to some?

Why does it need to turn upside down?

What have we done to turn it against us?

For us to suffer this shit that’s happening now

Life will not dictate you what to do

Nor tells someone who can help you

It will only watch and judge you

On this Fuck up world made by you

So what? Let’s continue living

Who cares? We’re just a mere being

To this Goddamn world who only knows misery

Pretending to be paradise but becomes empty…

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Mask in Fairyland

I see a smile draw in my face

I look in the mirror if it is just a fake

I could tell that is just a mere mistake

‘Coz behind the smile is a heart that aches

I hear the sounds of my laugh

I made a joke, but I know it was just a bluff

I’ll be fooling myself even if it is tough

Pretending I am happy though I know I was cut

I’m living in my fairyland

That never knows the sadness that I have

I have the love that I needed in my life

And the happiness that serves as my light

But reality kicks in every night

‘Cause it was a place made out lies

A dream that I created in my mind

For me to run and my pain to hide

I’m asking myself

How long will it take?

How long will I cry?

How long my feelings should hide?

I didn’t even bother to think that I was wrong

For sometimes it makes me feel I’m strong

To face the truth that I am living all alone

After I take off the mask that I made to fool

Someday I wanna see myself smiling

Without a doubt that I’m only dreaming

Without looking back and see myself crying

Someday I want my life full of love and giggling

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